10/04/26

I have recently realised that I'm alterhuman.
Not very surprising.

My experiences with being alterhuman are very limited, as I didn't think much about my identity because I saw it just as the way I've always been. But lately, I started to think about it.

What is Eclipse?

Previously, I had thought of them as an OC or fursona-adjacent character. But here's the thing: I am Eclipse. I go by Eclipse everywhere except for real life. The reason why I don't have many drawings of Eclipse is because it's awkward to draw her in the same way it's awkward to draw yourself. Every time I hear the word 'dragon' I suppress the urge to say "that's me!!" like some kid who saw a stranger with the same last name as them. In my mind, I picture myself as a dragon. A blue feathered one, at that. It begins to seem that me being alterhuman wasn't that big of a realisation after all.

I haven't been Eclipse my whole life, though. I used to be a different dragon called Python, a green scaled dragon with a leaf light on the end of her tail (like a lightbulb but it was organic sorta). It's been a bit too long for me to remember details, but there's a pattern. All three characters (who are all non-human btw) that I identified myself with throughout my life, all started out as OCs. Not that they aren't anymore, Eclipse exists in their own world besides from... me, which complicates things slightly, but only really in OC terms. I'm still a dragon, nothing changes that, and I'm still Eclipse.

I removed the name origin section on the About page because I didn't treat Eclipse with nearly the amount of respect I deserved (and I didn't feel like it was necessary). I also wasn't comfortable with the fact that I framed it as though I took some random OC of mine's name, not as though I actually WAS Eclipse. Maybe I just wasn't thinking about it back then, but reading back over it made me kinda embarrassed about myself. Not only did that section provide zero insight into how my mind worked at the time, it was also just plain old rude. So, I deleted it. I knew I wasn't going to miss it.

I prefer using words to describe my individual identity, since labels are often too vague or too specific for me to be able to accurately describe myself with them. (Note: It's completely fine if you prefer using labels to describe your identity. Everyone is different.) While I suppose I fit in the category of otherkin, I will simply call myself alterhuman.

Hopefully this can help people understand what being alterhuman is like for me. Thanks for reading!